It hasn’t been a bad week here, it hasn’t been a great week either.
I have the “swimming in treacle” feeling.
There is so much uncertainty so many changes looming, it all feels overwhelming.
We might be moving to a bigger house, hopefully we will know for definite in the next few weeks, whilst that would be a positive change in the long run, in the short term it would mean a lot of upset and a very unsettled period not just for Lachlan but for us all. It is stressful enough for children who can understand the concept of moving house, it must be a 100 times worse for thoes who don’t.
Lachlan seems to be having a stand still on the progress front for now, stand still’s leave me feeling uneasy, there is a constant fear that all the progress will slip away, regression can happen, the fear of it is always there at the back of my mind.
We have a review / transition to school meeting in just over a weeks time, after the disaster that was our last review meeting, I am not looking forward to this one, my wee man is not ready for school and I am not ready to let him go. The gap between Lachlan’s stage of development and that of his peer group is huge, all he really has in common with thoes children is his age.
All the professionals think school is the way forward.
I often wonder if one day Lachlan will catch up?
I look at the autistic children of others and wonder when Lachlan reaches the same age will he be like them?
Will we find ourselves facing the same challenges?
How do we know what the right choices are?
I look at the town and region we live in and there are next to no resources at all specifically for children or adults with Autism, in the future there maybe but what will it mean for my family if there are not?
Autism has made me very unsure of the future and where we are going. Already it has altered our path considerably.