I don’t know about other Autisim mums but ever since Autisim came to stay, I have dreamed and imagined the conversations I would love to have with Lachlan. I still have the conversations with Lachlan, I talk to him all day long, always leaving a pause for Lachlan to join in or reply if he wants too, but when I dream or imagine them, I see them being two way spontaneous conversations.
I mentioned in my last post that Lachlan had taken another little step forward.
I have been cautious about saying too much, I was worried this precious progress would slip away.
Sometimes it can be a one off fluke, that Lachlan says something everyone can understand.
I am delighted to say this little step has been developing and occurring more and more frequently, so much so it is becoming the new normal.
Lachlan has began filling in the blanks!
We noticed about a month ago Lachlans sentences were making much more sense, instead of…
“Daddy, ipad”, Lachlan now says “Daddy, I need my iPad”
“need food”, Lachlan said tonight “it’s teatime, I need spaghetti”
when reading a book Lachlan would say “book corner” the other day Lachlan brought me a book and said “Mummy look, fireman Sam book”
Last night Lachlan was very unsettled, at midnight I gave in and took Lachlan to bed with me, Lachlan said, “goodnight mummy”
The one that puzzles me though, is no matter how hard I try, Lachlan won’t say, I love you, I have no doubt he can say it, I have head it three times in the last four and a three quarter years.
I can get him to repeat almost anything, he is then very adept at applying new speech in the right situations, Lachlan is going through an An Angelina Balerina phase, it took a week but Lachlan can say both these words clearly now, which is helpful when he is shouting to have it on and no one other than me can make out what Lachlan wants.
Don’t get me wrong, we all know how much Lachlan loves us all, he shows it with lovely hugs and that great big smile, it just puzzles me why he won’t say it.
I know we still have a very long road ahead and Lachlan is still very much behind his peers, but these little steps fill me with so much hope and joy, hope, that the conversations we long for and dream of will one day become a reality and joy for how far we have come from the early days where Lachlan’s only word was goodbye!